02.08.02

4:06 p.m.

i went to oakland today, for the second time in three days.

the first time, on wednesday, i mistakenly took the wrong train and ended up in hayward (which is halfway down the bay, and a very long ways away from oakland). switching trains and backtracking and switching trains again and moving forward, it took about two hours to finally get to were i wanted to be.

today, though, there was no problem. up and back, under the bay. all in all, it took me about an hour. all the while listening to deep and dark, techy tribal stuff. feeling kind of bittersweet. also, somewhat empty.

last night, dug and i, we went out. we went to POW!. we were originally planning on going to the backflip, for lo-rise motel, but we got there too early. the bar wasn't even open.

so we talked and we decided. we walked the six or seven blocks to POW!, down to mission and over to sixth. we were hoping to hear some house.

but, no. no house. just hip-hop. and honestly, i am sick of hip-hop. honestly. also, if you're going to play grindin', fucking play it. don't drop the instrumental.

listen: hip hop djs, the stuff on the radio is good. yes, yes it is. sometimes, hip hop djs, the stuff on the radio is really good. or, atleast, better than the shit records that you're dropping.

listen, just because it's independent, doesn't mean that it's good. also, it doesn't mean that it gives you more cred. don't be afraid of the hov', please. also, play the fucking neptunes.

so we left early, dug and i. we left while the sun was still out. i got home around eight thirty, stopping off on the way to buy a six pack of heineken because the two tokyo ice teas that i drank earlier were feeling a little lonely.

and, back home, i drank. i drank and drank and drank. eventually, sipped on a bottle of old grand dad that i bought a couple of weeks ago. it was very nice.

and eventually, i fell asleep. around ten thirty. which was also very nice, because that was my plan. it was what i was hoping for.

but today, i am feeling somewhat empty. with a mild hangover and nothing in my stomach besides water-- the steak, egg, and cheese biscuit i ate for breakfast, long since gone-- i feel a little disconnected.

also, sleepy. i want nap time to come sometime soon.