02.07.23

11:01 p.m.

today i walked from ameoba records, which is at the top of haight street, to my apartment, which is in the middle of haight street and one block over.

sometimes i feel nervous around people. sometimes i keep my head down as i pass by people while i walk. sometimes this is a conscious effort; sometimes i lower my head, a couple of seconds before i meet someone coming from the other direction halfway, while simultaneously smiling.

sometimes though (today, for instance) i am just plain nervous. sometimes i don't have it in me to look at whomever may be approaching from the opposite direction.

but, it was ok. while i was at amoeba records, i bought some new music. and carrying that new music under my arm while i walked gave the feeling of nervousness while passing people on the street less importance.

i was talking to dug earlier today, while we smoked cigarettes on break from job, and i was saying that i had lost interest in housemusic, and that i wanted that to change. i was saying that i wasn't sure exactly what it was, but i just hadn't been feeling it lately.

i said, "i don't even listen to music on the ride into work. and i hardly ever do on my ride home. i mean, i spin records at home- i do- but, honestly, i get bored after fifteen minutes. i don't know if it's the records or what, but."

and he said, "well, it has happened before."

and i said, "yeah. true."

and he said, "maybe it's just another faze."

and then, thinking out loud i said, "maybe if i bought some new records- maybe new records would help."

so that's what i did. i went to amoeba and bought some new records and brought them home and listened to as many as i could before, out of consideration for my neighbors, i felt it was too late to be listening to records.

and it helped. the housemusic helped. i felt better.

these songs are good: nina simone see-line woman (masters at work remix) (verve); archigram carnaval (crydamoure); shaun escoffery days like this (dj spinna & ticklan remix) (oyster); crydajam playground (crydamoure); fatboy slim drop the hate (as remixed by the rev. h. lidbo and the progrexxive baptist choir of stockholm) (skint); fatboy slim talkin bout my baby (midfield general disco reshuffle) (skint).

these are some of the records that i bought today. there are more, but i have yet to listen to them. i'll get back to you, i'll tell you how i find the rest. i have my hopes up, they look pretty good. they include a police white label remix and a peace division compilation.

crydamoure, though. crydamoure is my label of choice at the moment. carnaval is easily one of the best house tunes to come out in the past couple of years.