02.03.24

1:20 a.m.

so sam and alannna showed. fifteen minutes after i uploaded that amazingly stunning literary work that i called an entry. yeah.

we chatted a bit and gave them the tour of the house and then went to eat. we ended up at chili's (not in and out) in san mateo on el camino. i had myself a burger and fries and coke. and we caught up. had a good time.

and honestly, i never feel so much as an adult as i do when i talk with people that i haven't seen in a while. when i gossip about friends long since not seen and talk about time past.

i think maybe it's because, while growing up, whenever i would see my parents being people (and not my parents) was mostly when people were visiting. relatives and whatnot.

cause, you know (and this is something i have been realizing more and more as i think about it) the way your parents act towards you when they are being parents, their behavior then is not necessarily a representation of your parents as people.

you know what i mean?

i don't know. sip sipping, drunk drinking the olde english forty.

and everyone (now) asleep. everyone lightweights.

(is any of this making sense?)