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02.01.13 3:59 a.m.
from: stoo hi! it's three o'clock in the morning. my roommates have yet to go to bed and, i think, my hopes of holding the television remote in my hand and steering the channel towards ifc and maybe watching a movie are growing slim. and i'm sleepy! yeah, i'm sleepy. but, not sleepy enough for bed on a saturday night. hopefully soon though. so, did you watch cowboy bebop? it was good right? i told you. anyway. i think i'm going to tell you about this girl at work that i have a crush on. ok. her name is _____. i met her on the very first day that i started working at the firm. she's kinda tall and very slender and asian. and she wears glasses, and her hair is long and a little in her face at times. and she definitely, definately, has that sort of elegance to her. and, on my first day- while walking around trying to familiarize myself with the office- i saw her talking to one of the receptionists. and we made eye contact and, at the time, i was all like, 'ooooooooo, who is that?' you know? yeah. and she's very quiet. very. she hardly says a word to anyone, except her receptionist friend. but she doesn't come off as shy. she's sort of got that 'cool high school kid' thing going on. you know? she's like one of the cool kids in high school that wouldn't really talk to anyone you knew, but you always saw them around- and they were always wearing t-shirts of bands that you heard of, but had never actually heard. she's kinda like that. yeah, she's kinda like that. and that's kind of intimidating, you know? and she hardly ever smiles. and, at first, i kinda thought she was just cold. dug and i actually joked about her being a robot at one point. and laughing i said, 'you know, it would almost be worth it to just run up and tickle her, just to see what would happen. like, it'd be worth getting fired over, just to see her laugh.' i don't know, maybe you know what i mean. but later, dug was telling me that she has pictures of puppy dogs up around her desk. really. puppy dogs. like, who would have thought, you know? so recently, i've been talking to her somewhat. i mean, not long drawn out conversations or anything, but- i don't know- just talking i guess. and she's cool! yeah, she's definitely cool. and alot warmer than i ever imagined her being. and sometimes, sometimes she'll smirk a little at something that i said. and it's nice. so, anyway, this all got me to thinking. and i had an idea. haha. an idea. i thought, 'why not see if she wants to be your friend.' cause, you know, she's kinda like me. you know? kinda stand-off-ish at first, later warming as you get to know her. like me, kinda. i don't know, i have a good feeling about this, the girl and me. i think we could be good. so yeah, i figured why not ask her to get coffee? and i psyched myself up for it. on friday. friday i was going to do it. but it never happened, cause i never saw her. you know? like, sure, i psyched myself up, but not necessarily enough to seek her out and ask her. you know? just enough to do it casually, as though it just occurred to me. but today, today i had to work some overtime. so i went into the office for a couple of hours around noon. and, in the back of my mind, i was hoping that maybe i would see her. but i didn't. i didn't see her. but!, i saw a picture of her. a picture. and this picture? jezus sarah, you don't even know. this picture totally reaffirmed everything i was thinking! this picture, it was pinned up on the bulletin board in the lunchroom. it was sitting there, amongst a bunch of other pictures, and it is of her, mid-laugh- and she is just beaming! and, really, i don't have to tickle her anymore, cause now i know what it would look like if i did. and, i don't know. i just stood in there, with a cup of coffee, staring at this picture for atleast a couple of minutes. i was almost tempted to steal it. anyway, so, yeah. i'm going to ask her. the picture told me that i should. and i'm hoping she likes coffee or tea or something, and that we could maybe get some of that together. so, you know, wish me luck. haha, i'm going to need it. oh and, i have yet to get your letter, i'm thinking it'll be here monday. i'm looking forward to reading it. reading it, and the strawberry shortcake stickers. lufluf. stoo. xoxoxoxo. mongrels, rug rats, and tomboys [http://stoo.diaryland.com] |